Black Sheep, Come Home

Random Pictures

One of my favorite things about my home is how so much cool stuff is piled around everywhere, just waiting to be photographed.



This is the cutest little girl in the world.



On a boat in Cali.



I enjoy this.



When I get a cup of coffee I need the little dot across from the sipping hole to be lined up with the back of the cup, where the cardboard meets, and the thermal-thingy needs to be lined up the same way.

Elvis & Anabelle

Excellent, excellent movie. Incredibly sweet, moving, and refreshingly simple. The acting is great, even for Blake. She does well as this girl, no super sappy like it could have been, but relate-able. And this Max guy... well, as Mom said "he's the next Paul Newman".

Straight Thuggin.

People make mistakes. And I buy shoes.

Work work work! I finally found some oxfords I could afford at Target, and I'm happy to report they seem to be working out just fine. I'm terribly excited about them!

Good Morning KPT

Drama Drama Drama, or not.

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I was thinking last night about the term "drama", as it applies to the lives of apparently many many people. I was wondering why I don't have a lot of this "drama" in my life and I realized that it doesn't matter if you have situations to deal with that strain and stress you, it doesn't matter if you are in love or heart broken, what matters is how you approach life and all the things that are thrown at you. For example, if someone decides to insult you there are two options: walk away and let it go, or start an argument that lasts for a while and is full of passive aggressive crap. By not walking away someone would create for themselves a situation where so much effort is put into judging a simple opinion that the results are "dramatic".
What I would like to get at is that most people who don't want "drama" don't understand that it's not a problem of "drama". It's a problem of them being Dramatic.

And on the record, I put this picture of this dog up because when I searched Flickr for "no drama" it came up with a bunch of intense stuff and this guy. I like him and I think he's got the right idea.

Rad Trash.

What A Playground

August has only just begun

I dig snail mail.

The past 24 hours have been stressful. Family drama of the intense kind drags me in and I'm trying to hold on to my sanity. Work was boring and I'm becoming depressed. It's my birthday on wednesday and it will most likely suck, as I have to work.

Then I got an early birthday card today and I almost cried. Not because I'm sad, but because it was wonderful.

I guess it's the little things.

Interior Decorating Porn.

I want to re-decorate.

What to do.

I really don't like people that I know sometimes. Between those that don't respect me, those who don't listen to me, and those who don't actually want me in their lives (it feels to me) I'm pretty sure I have two or three people in my life that actually want me there and like it. They treat me as equals and don't tell me what to do. They use me for support and don't try to take things on on their own. If nothing more than a ear and shoulder I can be good for that.

I also know my limits. I'm tired of being told what to do. I'm tired of being told who I am and how I feel. I'm tired of not being considered a friend when I've done everything I can to be one. And I'm tired of constantly settling for people I end up resenting because they make themselves out to be one thing and then become another. I'm tired of being treated as second rate.

And I have a sunburn and my kidney hurts.

This one.
Why do I feel like Blair?

Still digging Hall & Oats. "You make my dreams come true..."

Well, I'm feeling much better than I was previously this week. I think it's because I finally have made some money and don't feel so poor. I got to work a double on Wednesday because my coworker got a tooth pulled and was puking up blood, so I covered for her. It sucks that she didn't get to make the money, but it rocks that I did because I've been anxious about it. So now I have moneys in the bank and a pay check to deposit. So maybe I can pay off some bills? Who knows.
I did do one thing though with some money I've been making. I changed my hair color. Hehehe! Lightened up for the warm months! Hells yes!
So now I'm putzing around on the computer at the library before going to work. Trying to message people I miss and all that jazz. I'm so uninspired though. Hopefully I will be able to follow through with it.

• This is a pretty funny look at interview-ees.
• "Your surrender means something, but your defiance means even more."
• I'm super intrigued by this woman and her office.
• I also think this is a funny mockery of her work.

"Once, when my sister was living in Cuzco, Peru, I went to visit. We went to a
bar, and she was wearing some vintage paint-splattered army pants. Her Peruvian
friend Henry looked dismayed; we asked why and his answer was, to translate and
sum up, "Why do you want to look poor?" That is the question I have for anyone
who buys these fucking overalls."

You make my dreams come true...

I've decided that I cannot be bothered with being a grump today. Everything will work out in the end and it is such a joy to be alive. So I'm going to list some amazing things on this wonderful friday and remember why it's good to be here, now.

• I took this picture when taking a cross country trip with my BFF from High school, and I love middle America.
• I'm going to get coffee today, and I haven't had coffee in a few days so I'm really excited to get to have it again.
• I get to go work, which means I have a job! I mean, in this economy that's a pretty rocken' thing.
  

• The Natural Female Form: This is a rad tumblr that is hopefully a good reminder to all that we come in more shapes and sizes than you even know!

• My dear friend Youdhi has a deviantART and likes to put up pictures of his amazing work. He's a bit abstract, but he's been moving toward human figures recently and his style is completely amazing, just really fucking good. (He did that horse-like pic up there!)

• It's Hans Christian Andersen's birthday, and without him there would be no Steadfast Tin Soldier or Little Mermaid.

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• Why is it a good day? Hall and Oats, You Make My Dreams Come True.
• My old roommate has a New Blog, which may or may not last but while it does I will read.
• I got to go to not one but TWO movies this week. They were both excellent, one being Repo Men, the other Remember Me. I highly recommend both films, although Remember Me made me cry so it might make you cry. And Repo Men has tons of blood and gross things and action and a twist! These movies are stuck in my head!
• This blog is so fricken cute. I especially wish I had written this one.
• This Chick has some very good stuff, really interesting and things I wish I knew better.

"Whatever you do in life will be insignificant, but it's very important that you do it. Because nobody else will. Like when someone comes into your life and half of you says you're nowhere near ready, but the other half says: make her yours forever." - Remember Me

I rise hard and fast, like a twelve year old's dick.

I'm pretty sure that there's some sort of constitutional thing that we as Americans get to do as we like when we like and all that. I'm really a big fan of this, I'd even fan it on Facebook if it weren't such a gay thing to do. I am a young woman who gets to buy cigarettes, porn, lottery tickets, alcohol, and whatever else I choose. And yet, for some reason, it's been my impression that others find me to be a naive and silly young girl. Money issues? Got em. Lots of em. I'm working on it and applying to jobs, using what I can to do what I can. License? If I have no car I cannot take the test or even get to the building. My friends and play time? I'm pretty sure I'm not a drug addict and I have very few people in my life who are important enough to speak to on a regular basis. And there are very few who have decided I make their list of important enough people, so when there's a symbiotic relationship I care more.
I'm not trying to tell anyone else what to do. I don't want to be intruding on their freedom, and I don't want to judge. We all have our path, this is an idea that I have found solace in. This is how I try to live my life in regards to others, and while I believe (unrealistically) these things I would in no way attack someone for living in a different way, at least not unless they deserve it.
We all have a path, each one is different and our own. We are not coming from the same places and we won't end up in the same places. Our paths can merge or follow the same trail, whatever. But this is not permanent, and the only way to keep our connections is to put effort into it. The only way to create healthy connections is to turn to people with an open mind and heart, because we all have been places we aren't proud of, and we all have done things we don't want to live up to. The consequences of our actions may be severe or non-existent, but either way our human connections should be based on safety and healing. We should be able to provide others a little bit of hope and happiness instead of providing more pain.
I think that I'm at a point where I'm tired of so many different voices telling me how to live and so few of them actually caring about me. I don't think you can tell someone what to do just to make yourself feel better, it's not always your place and it doesn't always come out in a supportive way. I guess I'm just too idealistic to handle other people.

“No man is great enough or wise enough for any of us to surrender our destiny to. The only way in which anyone can lead us is to restore to us the belief in our own guidance.” — Henry Miller

In Your Face.

Work It Move That Bitch Crazy

So I've been thinking about my style lately because I love fashion and I believe that it is truly a way of showing the world your personality through clothes. It's hard though, not having a lot of money and knowing that having fewer pieces will be more helpful to creating a personal style/uniform than having a large amount of clothes. Plus, it is important to dress for your shape. In my case, hips are bigger than chest, waist is small. I've begun to offset that by wearing one of those wonderful new bras from Victoria's Secret that makes your tits look 2 sizes bigger, and thank goodness they've paid for themselves in the tips I've been getting.
Basically, when I think of my personal style and what I want to wear every day I consider it a mesh of random inspiration points: Model's off duty wear, Skateboarders (male or female) of the 70's/Dogtown era, 80's&90's Rock Groupies (Grunge, Plaid, Leopard print, Boots, Dresses, Studs, Leather). The amount of celeb inspirations are countless, but the classics in my book are Sienna Miller, Keira Knightley, Kate Moss, Kirsten Dunst, Lauren Conrad, Rachel Bilson, and Blake Lively as Serena in Gossip Girl, not to mention so many more it would make your face hurt.
But this is basically what I would wear most days because it seems like something I could be comfortable in and also show my personality off without being too flamboyant. I really don't always realize how low key I prefer to look because I consider low key to be something associated with preppy, which I'm really not.

How sick is this picture? Mary Kate Olsen is one of the best inspirations for wearing anything you fucking feel like. More to come on all of this when I don't have to work in 30 minutes.

Spring-Like Day.

It's almost spring break for most people, and for me it's almost time to be bored out of my skull while everyone is away. I'll get to work and save and not have much to do. But maybe I'll get back into some writing. Maybe.

(If there is one thing I've learned, it is this.)