I rise hard and fast, like a twelve year old's dick.

I'm pretty sure that there's some sort of constitutional thing that we as Americans get to do as we like when we like and all that. I'm really a big fan of this, I'd even fan it on Facebook if it weren't such a gay thing to do. I am a young woman who gets to buy cigarettes, porn, lottery tickets, alcohol, and whatever else I choose. And yet, for some reason, it's been my impression that others find me to be a naive and silly young girl. Money issues? Got em. Lots of em. I'm working on it and applying to jobs, using what I can to do what I can. License? If I have no car I cannot take the test or even get to the building. My friends and play time? I'm pretty sure I'm not a drug addict and I have very few people in my life who are important enough to speak to on a regular basis. And there are very few who have decided I make their list of important enough people, so when there's a symbiotic relationship I care more.
I'm not trying to tell anyone else what to do. I don't want to be intruding on their freedom, and I don't want to judge. We all have our path, this is an idea that I have found solace in. This is how I try to live my life in regards to others, and while I believe (unrealistically) these things I would in no way attack someone for living in a different way, at least not unless they deserve it.
We all have a path, each one is different and our own. We are not coming from the same places and we won't end up in the same places. Our paths can merge or follow the same trail, whatever. But this is not permanent, and the only way to keep our connections is to put effort into it. The only way to create healthy connections is to turn to people with an open mind and heart, because we all have been places we aren't proud of, and we all have done things we don't want to live up to. The consequences of our actions may be severe or non-existent, but either way our human connections should be based on safety and healing. We should be able to provide others a little bit of hope and happiness instead of providing more pain.
I think that I'm at a point where I'm tired of so many different voices telling me how to live and so few of them actually caring about me. I don't think you can tell someone what to do just to make yourself feel better, it's not always your place and it doesn't always come out in a supportive way. I guess I'm just too idealistic to handle other people.

“No man is great enough or wise enough for any of us to surrender our destiny to. The only way in which anyone can lead us is to restore to us the belief in our own guidance.” — Henry Miller