I really don't like people that I know sometimes. Between those that
don't respect me, those who
don't listen to me, and those who
don't actually want me in their lives (it feels to me) I'm pretty sure I have two or three people in my life that actually want me there and like it. They
treat me as equals and don't tell me what to do. They use me for support and
don't try to take things on on their own. If nothing more than a ear and shoulder I can be good for that.
I also know my limits. I'm tired of being told what to do. I'm tired of being told who I am and how I feel. I'm tired of not being considered a friend when I've done everything I can to be one. And I'm tired of constantly settling for people I end up resenting because they make themselves out to be one thing and then become another. I'm tired of being treated as second rate. And I have a sunburn and my kidney hurts.
I would so love to think that I'm one of the 2 or 3, but I'd hate to make an assumption...
ReplyDeletePlease know that I do support you, dear, and am in awe of the so many beautiful things that you do. I know I won't be here this summer, but I will be available to you in spirit and in conversation. I don't want my absence to be like it has in the past, where when we are separated geographically our connection also becomes severed. I'll be blogging tons, and even though I don't always get service on my cell, I'll be calling you an awful lot from the cafe in town.
I love you very much, chica doodle.
I just wanted to say that I know that I like to keep things really private and don't like to talk about a lot of things. But I do know you're there if I ever had a real big issue. My family stuff I talk to my family about, but personal life wise and all that I know I could talk to you. For me things are just crazy right now and I'm having a hard enough time processing things well enough so I can make myself understand. Sorry if I ever made you feel poopy!
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